Rooted & Rising
LOVE'S FLIGHT
"When I am loving I can be with the shadows.
The light of love makes their shape more clear.
And I can love them too, these shadows.”
–ANAE
Late July Greetings!
I'm sitting writing this at the fever pitch of summer in Maine, a true experience of opposites for me where the weather invites me to be a lazy shade-dweller, and the summer season's spirit asks me to be active. So I have been doing a bit of both, teetering between rest and contemplation, and stepping out doing activities that have been on my bucket list. Both sides of the pendulum have offered me medicine and new personal insights.
Last month the summer set me ablaze with change. After a transformative return to Italy in May, I was met with a sudden death in the family and then the need to move from the home we have been renting. Under these conditions, I would typically shift into being the doer and solver, switching myself into emotional shutdown mode. I knew I couldn't go there this time. I had to consciously decide to partner with these changes not with wild swings from robotic action to emotional overload, but from a point in the center of my personal pendulum. My outdated ways of coping keep me in the extremes, and in order for me to start paving a new way, I needed to practice finding my center in the chaos. I was asked to lift my gaze and take actions towards building a new path forward. I'm officially in the second half of my life, and this feels like a "now or never" opportunity!
From this place of commitment new conversations started to emerge in my marriage, and I found myself wanting to be closer to those around me versus my old way of distancing myself. The fearful hypervigilance that I developed during my childhood has kept me from being able to fill my own cup and allow my nervous system to rest, and that way of being has now officially been marked as outdated. And so my work begins. It will be a daily devotion to build strength in making decisions and living from a place of wisdom and not from a place of old judgements and fear. I can see how this will support me in living an even bolder and more connected life.
If there was ever a time in our collective history to realign so we can show up for ourselves, our communities, and the Earth in new ways, it is now! Want to join me in taking new actions towards a new future? I'd love to hear from you! Drop me an email!
Much love to you and your spirit,
Sara
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