Shedding Shadows
- ADORNED -
Know
you are your grandmother
woven
into another form.”
-Sabina Jones
Happy New Year!
As I step gently into 2025, the personal theme I will be working with is emerging - I will be shedding layers of shadow around worry and anxiety. It seems I will be taking my queues from Snake medicine, fitting as this is the Year of the Snake. I have already done a good deal work around managing anxiety and worry in my life, yet their energy has been potent in the last months. The more space I am giving my worry and anxiety to show me its place of origin, the clearer I can see how it has been a ruling principle in my life. It seems like the time is now to turn my gaze to its origin point, to the seeds.
When I work on untangling energy, that is to say a belief or coping mechanism that is outdated or no longer needed, I start by asking, who is there? So, I ask my psyche, my soul, if there is a part of me that can show me where this all started. Typically I begin to remember instances in my childhood and adulthood that will serve as breadcrumbs to trace back and discover what and who within me needs support. This time, when I opened the inquiry of who within me is carrying worry and anxiety, no parts of me came forward. As the days went on, I started to see and feel ancestral memories and knew deeply that the anxiety and worry were not seeded in my brief lifespan. I understood that it was finally time to fully witness the burdens on my father's ancestral lines.
My personal ancestral healing work has spanned many years. I see this work as a life-long process, one that may have no true end. My capacity to process and witness deepens as I change and shift over the years and as my ruling celestial bodies shift and change in the heavens. Therefore healing that seemed complete to me months or years ago may be taken deeper now. I see this as a shedding of layers just as snake sheds its skin multiple times a year. I've had to give myself time to be able to unwind anger and resentment held against my father's family. For the last five years I have sat in ceremony with the vibrant ancient ancestors of those lines, allowing the idea that there is vibrancy to slowly sink into my internal system. And it seems that now is the time, the time to be shown the burdens I've been carrying from those lines around the anxiety and worry. I'm saying the and not my because in the end I've been living out energies from a very long time ago in my family lines.
I share this not from a place of sadness. I share this from a place of awe and wonder at how powerful energy can be. It can be life-changing to build strength, to find support, to shift attention to the seeds and start shedding shadows. And in this shedding what becomes embodied is more and more of the vibrancy and less and less of the burdens. How has the beginning of this year been landing for you? Are you noticing any patterns emerging that are asking for a new sense of attention? I'd love to hear from you! Drop me an email!
Much love to you and your spirit,
Sara
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